I’m going to post about the camp we were just at, but I need to be somewhere I can upload some pictures, so I’ll wait on that.
Just a little baby update. The little one is making large movements now, like big, pressing sweeps across the front of me. It’s fun to feel, even slightly painful at moments.
I think I feel contractions at times, too. They’re like big downwards pressure when I stand up or am active. And twinges up my inner thigh–I’ve always had those, too.
People look at my huge stomach and think I’m on the verge of birthing.
🙂 Still about 10 weeks to go, probably more like 12, knowing myself.
I always have fears during a pregnancy about the birth. From what I’ve read, this is fairly common. My second birth, my fears were tearing hugely (and I had nothing) and something I forget. Third birth was shoulder dystocia (and he slid right out). This time my fears are me or the baby dying. So I decided today to do something I think my mom would do. I’m just going to *pretend* that everything will be beautiful and great.
Another thing I dislike, is that I have so many images and experiences of hospital births and interactions with medical personnel, that this is what I imagine when I think about my birth– I had this a lot during Andre’s birth. So, I’m going to take some time to create some home-birth-fulfilled birthing images/imaginings, so I focus on that more than on hospital stuff. I think I’ll read birth stories and journal some things to help me do this.
So, that’s my baby update ❤