I read a blog post of an older lady that I really admire, but that high ideal started me all worrying about this issue again, the meaning of my life, etc. … So I talked with Vitaliy about it again. And this time it was even more helpful.
I was talking about how I struggle finding significance in motherhood because it just seems to be so usual and what everyone does.
But, he said, God made your circumstances, as a mom, unique. Even though motherhood is what most women experience, you are each in individual circumstances that God designed for your personal good.
I think this was the most helpful idea. That even though I do laundry, dishes, food prep, homeschool just like “everyone else,” God doesn’t deal with us in a mass. He deals with each of us specially, gives us each especial/individual circumstances, and I can look at each detail of my life as personally given to me from Him.
Yes, this is highly personal between God and me.
Second, he said, recognize that God is not going to give you a life that “doesn’t matter.” What God gives you is good. It matters. For you and God, it matters a lot. He mentioned Louis Braille, and how he prayed saying that God had given him a good gift (his blindness) and asked God to multiply this talent.
I like that example. Many people are/were blind, and each one can receive it uniquely from God, and it has deep purpose in their lives, and the “seed” can reap a harvest. The same with motherhood. Many are mothers, each one can receive it uniquely and personally from God, it has deep purpose in their lives, and the seed of this gift can reap a harvest.
Also, he said, don’t try to find your meaning in mothering itself. Find yourself in enjoying being with God. That will never change, and it will help you be stable in joy, fulfillment, etc. You won’t ride the roller coaster of feeling successful/unsuccessful in your own perception.