So I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about this. It’s time. And I was drawn to the verse:
Great peace have those who love your law, and nothing can make them stumble. (Ps. 119:165)
This whole question is something I’m stumbling over, so … where am I not loving God’s law?
I don’t normally struggle with forgiving personal offences, but I think I am dealing with a long-standing unforgiveness with people in my church. A bitterness that has taken root and shows itself in cynicism and lack of feeling.
It was awful last night as I was trying to pray about this and figure out what is wrong with me. I couldn’t get my mind out of accusing thoughts. And I finally just had to beg God to do something because my own thinking was getting nowhere. That’s when I saw the bitterness. And I started forgiving. It’s still not done yet because my first reactions are still to go mentally to all those accusing thoughts.
But I’m thinking about the Law, how to be changed by loving it, and how to apply it to these thoughts. How to put the thoughts of the Law into my head in place of these satanic thoughts.
So I’ve been thinking about how the law is full of mercy. That the whole sacrificial system was part of the law, was commanded–and all this pointed to Christ’s sacrifice that pleased and satisfied God toward our sins.
Because if I and these people in my church—if we all had to stand before God’s righteousness, I would be crushed just as much as they would.
But it’s hard, honestly, to give mercy but not trust. But doesn’t God do that for us? He gives us mercy, His compassions are new for us every morning. He is faithful to us, even when we only reach His standard in Christ, never of ourselves.
I was thinking about Christ forgiving the woman caught in adultery. Christ fulfilled the law. He was doing the specific will of God in that act of forgiveness.
That’s as far as I have gotten for now.
“Come and let us go up to the mountain of the Lord
And to the house of the God of Jacob,
That He may teach us about His ways
And that we may walk in His paths.”
For even from Zion will go forth the law,
Even the word of the Lord from Jerusalem