I had an insight a few days ago about this topic.
Let me back up and lay the foundation. . . . Sometimes we talk to unbelievers who accuse God. They say, why does He allow sin and suffering . . . yada, yada.
Sometimes I am tempted to be angry with God because of something I think I really need or really want that God does not give me, some source of pain.
And I realized a few days ago why this is.
It’s because God didn’t hide Himself from us. He didn’t hide that He is perfectly good, perfectly in control, perferctly righteous, perfect love. He openly tells us these things repeatedly.
Therefore, we expect Him to make the world (in general) and my world (in particular) right, as He is right.
But He doesn’t. So here we are, and we have a God who we don’t just shrug off His actions like a corrupt politician. We don’t just say, “oh, you allowed my child to die, you allowed me not to have kids, well, what can you expect from such a self-serving, disinterested God who only cares about himself.” That’s how we pacify ourselves with the actions of the wicked.
But not with God. We rather say, “God, how can you create in me expectations of love and happpiness and joy and righteousnes plus the fact that you have ALL POWER to do these things . . . and then you don’t do/fulfill them?!?!”
There’s something really big we are missing about God and His actions to us. And to be honest, I dont’ have the insight-answer all the way yet. Maybe God will give it to me this afternoon 😀 And I’ll be sure to type it out here.
But I think there’s something we need to understand about living in a sinful world with a perfect, all-powerful God.
I will give you a very personal example. We have relatively little support. It actually is rather stressful to live from month to month. Probably not as stressful as for Ukrainians, but it’s definitely something that I am often sinful in worrying about. And I get angry at God about it too sometimes. We have done SO MUCH to raise support. And it very rarely pans out with income. “Why, God, if it is so easy for you to do, do you not do it?”
I don’t know why He doesn’t do it. . . . And I can’t just shrug it off that he doesn’t really care about me, that he is busy with other interests, that he’s taking away money from me to build himself another dacha along the Dniepr River.
God has not hidden Himself or His motives from me. I know He is still perfectly good, perfectly loves me, and this is for His glory. He has perfect reasons why He is orchestrating this. It all perfectly works together for my good, making me like Christ. There is a purpose; it’s not just a random situation.
Anyway, this is as far as I’ve gotten for now.
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